Monthly Archives: March 2013

I’m feeling like a failure.

Half-marathon training. Last week, it did not go well. As in, it pretty much didn’t happen.

Last week, I was supposed to do 3 x 5km runs, and a 6km ‘long’ run.

Last week, I walk/ran 5.65km and 5.02km, and also 1.11km. I went to pump twice, WiiFit(ed?) learned to ride my bike and swam 1.5km. I mean, it’s not like I did nothing.

But I did not do my runs for ½ marathon training. I also haven’t run 5km in a row without walking. And I’m starting to panic.

I mean, I know that’s silly. I know I can walk/run until I can run the whole period, and if I need to, I can even walk/run the ½ marathon.

But I really want to run. I honestly think the reason I’m not running is because I’m worried I won’t be able to do it, and that means failure. Somehow, my brain doesn’t equate ‘not attempting it’ as failure. My brain is an idiot.

Last week, I only ran 11.78km. I should have run 20km.

This week, I have a plan.

Monday: 5km + biking at gym for a total of an hour
Tuesday: Pump + 5km
Wednesday: Ride my bike in the wild (rest day)
Thursday: 5km run + pump
Friday: 5km run + biking at gym for a total of an hour
Saturday: Ride my bike in the wild (rest day)
Sunday: 6.5km run, pump if I feel like it/get up early enough, ride my bike in the wild, 2km swim + UWH game.

This is 5 runs where my schedule calls for 4, but I need to make up a bit from last week, and I think it will help boost my confidence a bit.

In 5 weeks, I have a 10k event. Then only 10 weeks after that, the ½ marathon. I can’t piss around and slack off between now and then; no matter how busy and stressed I am at work or how scared I am of failing.

The only thing worse than failure is not trying at all.


1/2 marathon training partial win

Yesterday, I tried to become a morning runner and failed, going back to sleep without even attempting to get out of bed.

This morning, I made it out of bed AND outside!

I woke early and was outside within 7 minutes of getting up. Everything I needed to put on was next to my bed, so I didn’t have to stumble around in the dark searching for everything.

I really wish I got a photo of the cat, who was sitting in bed with her eyes closed, swaying. I’m 90% sure she was still asleep. Spoiler alert: When I got home, she was laying down in that same spot, fast asleep, and didn’t appreciated me rubbing my sweaty face on her.

Anyway, I got outside. It was dark. There was a moon. I took a photo. There were very few streetlights.

photo 1

I found it really hard to get running because it was cold and everything was still sleeping. I didn’t run nearly as much as I would have liked this morning, but I’m not too worried because it was my first outside run since Round the Bays.

It was pretty nice to watch the sun slowly coming up, and definitely great to feel like I was almost the only person in the world (even if I did get scared when I saw other people). Also, that light you can see? It’s a streetlight, not the sun. Stop being excited over nothing.

photo 2

I happened to choose the most hilly route possible. That wasn’t really a good move, and next time, I’m going to pick a different one. This hill doesn’t really look like much, but believe me, hauling your ass up there at 630am is no easy feat.

photo 3

I got home at 7, after a 45 min mostly walk/small amount of run. On usual mornings, I don’t shower, so this morning I showered, at breakfast at home (usually I have breakfast at work), did some yoga, packed my gym bag for pump tonight and even loaded the dishwasher and had snuggles with the kitties. I left the house at the usual time, and I have to say, I felt pretty damn productive.

Right now it’s 11am, and I’m STARVING. Lunch can’t come soon enough. I can see that this might be one downside to morning runs, although with all the extra time I had in the morning before it was time to go to work, I could actually cook something substantial. Or even better, have two breakfasts!

My plan tonight is to go to pump, then do a 1/2hr treadmill run to make up for the lack of actually running this morning. It’s SO nice to be in and out of the gym in less than two hours so I can spend more time at home laying around watching TV.

Morning running – 4 stars. Would trade again.

1/2 marathon training fail

This morning, I missed my first scheduled run for 1/2 training. Oops. I’m the worst.

I planned a morning run, but when I woke up, it was still dark, I barely got any sleep due to an escaped cat which meant I spent nearly an hour running around the streets looking for him. My knees were sore and my legs were tired…basically, I had too many excuses.

Now of course, I wish I went. I know I’d be feeling much better if I actually just got up and ran. Now I can’t decide if I should move the run to tomorrow morning, or run tonight then again tomorrow morning.

What do you think?

1/2 marathon training

1/2 marathon training officially starts tomorrow. Shit.

Let me tell you a few things about 1/2 marathon training.

  1. I am NOT ready for this training program – The most I’ve actually run without a walk break is 1km. Tomorrow, I’m supposed to run 5km. This is awkward. My approach is to continue walk/running as I need to until I can run the whole run. I thought about pushing back 1/2 training until I could comfortably run 5km, but I think it will probably only be a couple of weeks of me actually pushing outside of my comfort zone before I can do it.
  2. I haven’t run outside or 2 weeks – I’ve been doing most of my runs on the treadmill because it’s still pretty hot outside after work. Obviously, this isn’t ideal for actually running outside on anything other than a treadmill belt. Sure, there are some people who train exclusively on treadmills, but I need to get outside.
  3. I’m really scared – It sounds totally ridiculous, but the idea of committing to a 1/2 marathon seems crazypants. I’m not really scared of the running, because I trust that my body can do it. It’s scary because I’ve committed to it. I can’t now go, oh, actually I’ll not be running this because I didn’t train enough or I don’t want to do it. They say the first step is the hardest part. I don’t know, but it’s pretty scary!



I posted my goals for 1/2 marathon training a few weeks ago. Let’s go over those again quickly now that we can be a bit more realistic.

Goal 1: Finish – this still seems like a great goal

Goal 2: Complete every run – I’m willing to make some allowances for tiredness and injury, though really skipping runs isn’t ok.

Goal 3: No injuries – I know there isn’t a failsafe method to avoid injuries, but I’m doing all I can. Rest days, cross training, strength training, yoga. Yay.

Goal 4: Run with others – good goal. Who’s gonna be my running buddy?

Goal 5: Run early – shock horror, tomorrow, I’m running in the morning. Right now it’s 11pm and I need to be out of my house running at 6, so maybe I’ll let you know how that goes :p

Goal 6: Enter races – Levin is entered, Pencarrow is still on my list. I’m also thinking of the Porirua Grand Traverse which is in April (7.5km)

Goal 7: Have fun – I’ll keep you posted. Right now, I get a huge sense of satisfaction finishing a run. I’m hoping that sticks around!

Goal 8: Keep running – another thing I’ll let you know on!

Plan for this week: 

Monday: 5km run (I’ll be happy with 4km, outside), 15km bike (gym)
Tuesday: 5km run, pump
Wednesday: rest
Thursday: pump, 15km bike (gym)
Friday: 5km run, 10km bike
Saturday: rest
Sunday: 6km run, pump (?)

The Shoe Situation (part 2)

I posted the story of choosing my shoes and the shoe situation after a run.

Well, I did another run in them the following day, and decided that my feet weren’t feeling quite how I’d like. There was less pain, but they’re SHOES. There shouldn’t be any pain.

I decided to suck it up and take them back to the store and try something else. They were great about returning them – asked lots of questions about what the pain felt like, how it started and watched me walk in different shoes.

The sales assistant suggested the 860v2s.

New Balance are currently selling v3, but because I got these at an outlet store, they only had v2. Frankly, considering I got them for $160 (well, actually free, because I just exchanged them for the other ones that didn’t fit right) when they usually retail for $240, I don’t mind.

The colour is great (I’ve always wanted cool, bright shoes!), and so far, they’re really comfortable. I’ve worn then for a couple of hours and they’ve been pain free. They don’t feel like they need breaking in – in fact, they feel exactly how I think running shoes should feel.

I don’t want to get too excited too soon, but I’ll run in them tomorrow and see how they feel after a run.

I’m really hoping for good things from these shoes!

Great Forest Events 10k

I registered for a 10k.

It’s on 13 April which is SIX weeks away. At the moment, I’m still walk/running (about 7-8min running, 30sec walking). I’ve decided I don’t even care if that’s how I complete the 1/2 marathon. Running is hard and I’d rather work my way up slowly without injuries than push myself too far. I’ll get there eventually.

Anyway. I’m running a 10k. Come run with me!

The shoe situation

I posted the story of how I chose my new shoes the other day.

They’re so pretty, and felt super comfy in the store.

Then I went for a walk in them.

I panicked almost all day, and decided I was going to return them and pick another pair of shoes.

Marcus convinced me to try them out for a run. I have 2 weeks to return them so I can try a couple of runs and see how they go.

So, off to the gym for a treadmill run.


The first km and a bit was sore. Not as sore as my walk to the dairy the day before, but sore all the same.

After the bathroom stop, the pain eased off. I started feeling really good, and I really appreciated the extra bounce in the forefoot.

I’ve decided to give the shoes another go. Everything I read says shoes should be comfy from day 1, and while they need a little breaking in, they should never be painful. In saying that, maybe the ouchy while I was walking was something else. I’ll give it 1 more run, and if that doen’t work out, I’ll return them on the weekend and pick something else.

I’m not 100% sure what to pick, but I think I’ll look at doing some research!