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I’m feeling like a failure.

Half-marathon training. Last week, it did not go well. As in, it pretty much didn’t happen.

Last week, I was supposed to do 3 x 5km runs, and a 6km ‘long’ run.

Last week, I walk/ran 5.65km and 5.02km, and also 1.11km. I went to pump twice, WiiFit(ed?) learned to ride my bike and swam 1.5km. I mean, it’s not like I did nothing.

But I did not do my runs for ½ marathon training. I also haven’t run 5km in a row without walking. And I’m starting to panic.

I mean, I know that’s silly. I know I can walk/run until I can run the whole period, and if I need to, I can even walk/run the ½ marathon.

But I really want to run. I honestly think the reason I’m not running is because I’m worried I won’t be able to do it, and that means failure. Somehow, my brain doesn’t equate ‘not attempting it’ as failure. My brain is an idiot.

Last week, I only ran 11.78km. I should have run 20km.

This week, I have a plan.

Monday: 5km + biking at gym for a total of an hour
Tuesday: Pump + 5km
Wednesday: Ride my bike in the wild (rest day)
Thursday: 5km run + pump
Friday: 5km run + biking at gym for a total of an hour
Saturday: Ride my bike in the wild (rest day)
Sunday: 6.5km run, pump if I feel like it/get up early enough, ride my bike in the wild, 2km swim + UWH game.

This is 5 runs where my schedule calls for 4, but I need to make up a bit from last week, and I think it will help boost my confidence a bit.

In 5 weeks, I have a 10k event. Then only 10 weeks after that, the ½ marathon. I can’t piss around and slack off between now and then; no matter how busy and stressed I am at work or how scared I am of failing.

The only thing worse than failure is not trying at all.

1/2 marathon training

1/2 marathon training officially starts tomorrow. Shit.

Let me tell you a few things about 1/2 marathon training.

  1. I am NOT ready for this training program – The most I’ve actually run without a walk break is 1km. Tomorrow, I’m supposed to run 5km. This is awkward. My approach is to continue walk/running as I need to until I can run the whole run. I thought about pushing back 1/2 training until I could comfortably run 5km, but I think it will probably only be a couple of weeks of me actually pushing outside of my comfort zone before I can do it.
  2. I haven’t run outside or 2 weeks – I’ve been doing most of my runs on the treadmill because it’s still pretty hot outside after work. Obviously, this isn’t ideal for actually running outside on anything other than a treadmill belt. Sure, there are some people who train exclusively on treadmills, but I need to get outside.
  3. I’m really scared – It sounds totally ridiculous, but the idea of committing to a 1/2 marathon seems crazypants. I’m not really scared of the running, because I trust that my body can do it. It’s scary because I’ve committed to it. I can’t now go, oh, actually I’ll not be running this because I didn’t train enough or I don’t want to do it. They say the first step is the hardest part. I don’t know, but it’s pretty scary!

 

 

I posted my goals for 1/2 marathon training a few weeks ago. Let’s go over those again quickly now that we can be a bit more realistic.

Goal 1: Finish – this still seems like a great goal

Goal 2: Complete every run – I’m willing to make some allowances for tiredness and injury, though really skipping runs isn’t ok.

Goal 3: No injuries – I know there isn’t a failsafe method to avoid injuries, but I’m doing all I can. Rest days, cross training, strength training, yoga. Yay.

Goal 4: Run with others – good goal. Who’s gonna be my running buddy?

Goal 5: Run early – shock horror, tomorrow, I’m running in the morning. Right now it’s 11pm and I need to be out of my house running at 6, so maybe I’ll let you know how that goes :p

Goal 6: Enter races – Levin is entered, Pencarrow is still on my list. I’m also thinking of the Porirua Grand Traverse which is in April (7.5km)

Goal 7: Have fun – I’ll keep you posted. Right now, I get a huge sense of satisfaction finishing a run. I’m hoping that sticks around!

Goal 8: Keep running – another thing I’ll let you know on!

Plan for this week: 

Monday: 5km run (I’ll be happy with 4km, outside), 15km bike (gym)
Tuesday: 5km run, pump
Wednesday: rest
Thursday: pump, 15km bike (gym)
Friday: 5km run, 10km bike
Saturday: rest
Sunday: 6km run, pump (?)

Great Forest Events 10k

I registered for a 10k.

It’s on 13 April which is SIX weeks away. At the moment, I’m still walk/running (about 7-8min running, 30sec walking). I’ve decided I don’t even care if that’s how I complete the 1/2 marathon. Running is hard and I’d rather work my way up slowly without injuries than push myself too far. I’ll get there eventually.

Anyway. I’m running a 10k. Come run with me!