Half-marathon training. Last week, it did not go well. As in, it pretty much didn’t happen.
Last week, I was supposed to do 3 x 5km runs, and a 6km ‘long’ run.
Last week, I walk/ran 5.65km and 5.02km, and also 1.11km. I went to pump twice, WiiFit(ed?) learned to ride my bike and swam 1.5km. I mean, it’s not like I did nothing.
But I did not do my runs for ½ marathon training. I also haven’t run 5km in a row without walking. And I’m starting to panic.
I mean, I know that’s silly. I know I can walk/run until I can run the whole period, and if I need to, I can even walk/run the ½ marathon.
But I really want to run. I honestly think the reason I’m not running is because I’m worried I won’t be able to do it, and that means failure. Somehow, my brain doesn’t equate ‘not attempting it’ as failure. My brain is an idiot.
Last week, I only ran 11.78km. I should have run 20km.
This week, I have a plan.
Monday: 5km + biking at gym for a total of an hour
Tuesday: Pump + 5km
Wednesday: Ride my bike in the wild (rest day)
Thursday: 5km run + pump
Friday: 5km run + biking at gym for a total of an hour
Saturday: Ride my bike in the wild (rest day)
Sunday: 6.5km run, pump if I feel like it/get up early enough, ride my bike in the wild, 2km swim + UWH game.
This is 5 runs where my schedule calls for 4, but I need to make up a bit from last week, and I think it will help boost my confidence a bit.
In 5 weeks, I have a 10k event. Then only 10 weeks after that, the ½ marathon. I can’t piss around and slack off between now and then; no matter how busy and stressed I am at work or how scared I am of failing.
The only thing worse than failure is not trying at all.